I know its been about a year since I've written anything on here... but I thought I'd start again. I love writing... so here you go. Here's your chance to read Courtney's thoughts.

Since being home from camp, I have felt incredibly lonely. Coming from this place of always having people around me, and always having someone to talk to, to back home, where I live alone with my parents. I dont have a job yet, so my days are spent at home alone. I've been trying to clean up my incredible mess from camp, and look for jobs, but I'm always alone in what I'm doing. It's such a huge change from being around people, and I just feel so sad...

What I realized this morning is that I'm not looking to God for my joy. At camp,  it's so easy to look to God when I'm feeling sad, because He's always the topic of conversation. I havent been taking my time in the mornings at home to praise God, and learn about Him, which is something I did every morning at camp. 

Tomorrow morning it starts. 

I need Jesus in my life. 

Without Him, I will always feel lonely...

I hope all of you feel the same way I do, and learn to crave your time with Jesus every day. 

It's so hard to crave time with Jesus with so many distractions. TV, my iphone, friends... life gets in the way. but the one thing I need to remember is all that Jesus did for me. He came as a human being, died a criminals death, and rose 3 days later, all to forgive MY sins. When I remember back to all those things, I can't help but want to spend time with Him. 

He deserves everything I have.

I just hope I can give it all to Him.