My life in pictures.

1. A picture of you in your room.

2. A picture of you posing with someone you actually don't like.

3. A picture of you with a former crush.

4. A picture of you very drunk.

5. A picture of you with a parent or 2.

6. A picture of you on your birthday, or favorite holiday.

7th birthday.

17th birthday.

7. Youngest picture of you in digital form

also in my room...

8. A picture of you that caused a stir. 

9. A picture of you where you're making a goofy face at the camera

10. A picture where times seemed simpler 

lorilee, courtney, linnea, jerrica. Kindergarten.

11. A picture of you and the last person you hung out with

12. A picture of you in any hat 

got this toque for free at MCC. and i looove it.

13. A picture of you on a night that was random 

14. Most recent picture of you

15. A picture of you on a day/night that changed your life 

first day of Outtatown!

First day of Small Group

16. A photo that you're tagged in, but aren't actually in.

"Tag Someone who changed your life" - thats me. 

i love you katie :)

17. A picture of you and a co-worker

none...

18. A picture of you with a friend that you couldnt live without. 

kelsey :)

hayley :)

Linnea :)

19. A picture with your oldest friend

Lorilee.

20. A picture with your newest friend

Mandy

Liz

Caleb

Vanessa

Jake

amelia.

Theres soo many more... couldnt add all the pictures.

21. A picture of you when you were anything but happy, even if you were smiling and did your best to hide it.

not exactly trying to hide a smile there... this wasnt even worth a smile. Afterwards it was :)

22. A picture of you, you had no idea was being taken.

23. A picture of you when you were a different person than you are now.

24. A picture of you in a fashion "DON'T"

25. A picture of you in a bathing suit, whether you loathe it or love it.

26. A picture of you taking a shot / chugging a beer / downing some sort of mixed drink

we never showed the alcohol in the pictures... haha.

27. A picture where you're dressed up. 

28. A picture of you with someone you love.

Laura ♥

mis sobrinos.

linnea ♥

my PMG girls :)

kelsey :)

29. A picture of how you'd like the world to see you.

30. A picture of how you like to spend everyday.

31. A picture where you may look like a slut. 

you cant see how short my dress is...

32. A picture with the most random people all together. 

just kidding.

33. A picture that makes your heart hurt. 

tiny baby.

34. A picture that makes your heart smile.

i love my small group.

35. A picture that makes you smile or laugh. 

definitely makes me laugh and smile. :)

36. A self taken photo that you like. 

37. A picture with people you have a lot of fun with. 

38. A picture of you with someone you miss. 

Isai.

caleb, vanessa, leah and heather.

39. A picture of you with someone you tell everything to. 

hayley.

Linnea.

vanessa

40. A picture that means a lot 

Garbage dump in Guate

This is my life.

yep. that's it! i keep screwing up. but the truth is... God still loves me. 

no idea why He'd want to keep loving me.. but He does.

it's kind of incredible.

life objective?

 As i was looking at my blog, and thinking about how I should probably update the title, "here with a purpose", because I am no longer in Guatemala, I realized that I wasn't just in Guatemala for a purpose, I'm also here, on earth, for a purpose. I guess I haven't really thought much about this, because I have no idea what my purpose here on earth is, just like I didn't know what my purpose in Guatemala was. I knew that God had me there for a reason. That I made it into the Outtatown program because God wanted me to be there. So I guess I'm here on earth because God wants me here. I don't feel like I can do any great things, or change anyone's life... but God thinks differently. He sees all the small things I do, like smile at the person passing me on the street, who is having a horrible day, or buying a drink for my friend just because i felt like it. There are so many small things we can do without even realizing that they're significant to someone else. So is this my purpose? To do small things for others that make them happy? I'm not sure... but I do know that God put me on this earth for a reason, and one day I hope I can figure out what it is. These are just some thoughts I've had recently that I guess I just needed to get out.

My life right now seems really insignificant to me. So these thoughts are really hard for me to actually believe as truth. I wake up in the morning, go to work for 3 hours, come home and maybe run, maybe sit in my room doing nothing… and then I go back to work for another 3 hours. How can I be serving God while this is the way I’m living? I guess I could start with this

Hold your tongue.

Don’t talk about that person that way.

Forgive the friend you haven’t talked to.

I want to show you the sunset.

Look and see how short life is and how your troubles are not worth worrying about.

Buy that bottle of wine and call your friend and see if he can get together to talk about the thing he’s been wanting to tell you.

I read this in a book a while back, and I realized that I haven’t been listening to God for the random little things that he wants to show me, or what he’s been telling me to do. It doesn’t have to be hard… I just need to listen. Maybe that’s my purpose. Listening. And doing. Can that be it? Just following God?

This doesn’t sound right to me.

Courtney’s purpose in life: To Follow God.

I mean… it seems easy. Like I have no objective in life. But I do! Following God is my objective. That can get me so far in life. He’ll show me what I should be doing with my life when I don’t know. And even if He doesn’t show me clearly, He’ll be there to guide me.

Sorry I’m all over the place. I guess this is my way to sort my thoughts. So, I guess that’s it. That’s me. That’s my objective. 

The Posada Belen Haunting.

Posada Belen Haunting from Jeff Maeck on Vimeo.




We had a little spare time at the Posada Belin in Antigua. Enjoy :)

Such love is this for me.

I was watching this video in church in Guatemala one day, and it really hit me. Jesus really loves us this much. That He would throw away His life on earth, so that when we're done living ours, we can join Him in heaven. He not only threw His life away for us, He threw it away on a cross. The most painful, humiliating death you can endure. 
This is Jesus, in His glory- King of heaven, dying for ME.





How can Jesus love ME this much...
It's unfathomable.
And yet, it's true... and it's real.
and it happened for me.