he laughed at me.

i was running today, and decided that me and God hadn't had a real chat in a while. 
i told him, "God, you're really intimidating."
i think he laughed at me.
then he reminded me that he loves me. he loves me like a child.
he reminded me that he made the whole universe, but he also made me.
he made me and he loves me.


so then i said to him, "God, what can i do for you?"
and he started listing off things that i could do, to please him, and to draw me closer to him.
i said, "wait, what? you want me to give up that?"
i told him that i wasn't sure i could.
i think he's giving me time.
but i know that he can give me the power to do his will.
he reminded me of that while i was running.
i asked him, "God, could i actually run like this without you?"
he said no.
he said that it was through his power that i had run that far without stopping, or getting tired.
he also took away my stomach cramp, and my knee pain so i could run farther. 


i told him that he was pretty freaking amazing.
i think he smiled.